I feel like the most horrible mom... Sometimes serena will have a look on her face and look like gracie, or even jackass... It hurts. I hate that she does that. I hate that it hurts and that the most precious and important person in my life reminds me of the most painful time period of my life. Reminding me that oneday I might have to tell her that her daddy didn't want her. Crushing her... I can already feel it. Mommy why don't I have a daddy... Wtf. Why. Just... Why... Feeling so lost atm... Why couldn't my life be normal, and not like this. Why couldn't I get married before I got pregnant... And why, why does my daughter have to suffer for the stupid decisions I've made... It's not fair to her... Such an innocent soul and the pain ahead for her... Lord have mercy on me. I don't know what to do. Feeling lost, hurt and depressed. It's just one of those nights...
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